Mommy ..

I arrived early at my doctor's clinic.. It was so quiet with few people in the waiting area..
Picked up a magazine.. Flipped the pages..

The headline caught my attention..
"Don't think mommy is a bad person"

The story goes like this .. Sarah was a 17 year old shyand quiet teenager.. She came from a very steady home.. Both parents worked decent jobs. Her mother was even involved in religious activities.

Her fate lead her to know a teenage boy in her school. He paid her the attention she craved. Showered her with the sweet gestures that found its way to her innocent heart.
One day he asked her to drive him home.. His friends bailed on him at the last minute.. Naturally she agreed and drove off to a secluded area in a park..

His tone suddenly changed.. Something weary was in his eyes.. He turned off the ignition and forcefully pulled her to his seat where he committed the unthinkable..
She was numb.. Got back into her seat and drove off peaking at the side mirror only to see his victorious smirk which she didn't fully understand.

The next day still in state of emotional numbness she confined in her friend.. She said " I think I am pregnant".
Her friend tried to absorb what's left of the anger but to her amazement.. There was none. Calmly she asked her if to pass by her house so she could have a pregnancy test. She did.. The test was negative.. Relief ? Not really.. There were no expectations..

Weeks passed by and this incident was never spoken about.. She noticed that she missed her monthly period.. Yet in her traumatized mind there was always a rational explanation.. It must be the stress of school..

Since that day on.. She started to feel differently.. She has been gaining weight.. Her clothes didn't fit her the same way they used to.. Yet Nobody noticed her growing belly..
She went several times shopping with her mother who was clueless.. Her clothes were picked off the racket and never tried on..

She never confined to her mother about the incident simply because she refused to believe it.. She never felt a kick or turn.. She never acknowledged the physical changes.. They didn't notice why worry them about something that isn't there..

Sarah went to the doctors on a monthly basis.. Did a lot of blood tests.. For other illnesses not once it was brought to her doctor's attention that she was pregnant. It never been tested and she never said a word about it.. Everybody was oblivious to it including the expectant mother..

On a beautiful day.. Sarah decided to attend a gathering organized by her mother.. It was a glorious day for everyone.. Sarah was helping out by lifting boxes and rearranging chairs.. Then she felt sick.. And told her mother that she wanted to go home because she had "pains in her tummy" and wanted to lay down.. Sara didn't know that she was at the first stages of labor.. Her mother gave her a peck on the cheek and told her that she will be home as soon as the gathering is over..

Sarah knew there was something wrong.. She couldn't understand why she had to feel those pains.. So she started pacing back and forth to the bathroom. When exhaustion finally hit her.. She decided to sit on the toilet .. a powerful urge to push overwhelmed her.. She did.. And she grabbed her infant.. Still in state of shock.. Her daughter was born.. The baby never screamed.. She looked at her blue face and looked at the umbilical cord around her neck.. She stood there watching.. Finally she got up and grabbed a pair of scissors and cut the umbilical cord.. Brought couple of towels and wrapped the lifeless body of her daughter and left her on the floor..

Sarah got on her knees and started scraping the floor.. She heard a knock .. Her mom got back home and wanted to make sure that she was ok.. The door was not locked.. Sarah replied calmly saying that she feels much better and will be out in few minutes..
In a robotic manner she continued cleaning and scraping the floor..Then got into the shower and washed away all traces of blood on her body..

She wrapped her daughter in a plastic bag and dumped her body in the trash bin outside her house and returned to watch TV with her mother like she always do ..

Few days later the police knocked the front door.. Sarah was eating breakfast.. Her mother opened the door and she was delivered the sad news.. " Ma'am we believe that your daughter had murdered your grandchild and is wanted for Murder" ..

to be continued..